Rain Rain Go Away...

First day it has rained in a long time... From temperatures ranging from 30 to a sudden 14 degrees. I woke up this morning and was contemplating on whether I should go to class or not.. But I decided I would since next week I will have a mid-semester break. Funny enough, we had a fire alarm even when it was drenching with rain.. This made me go home earlier than expected, which wasn't too good because I ended up taking a long afternoon nap. Anyways when I was sleeping/resting, I realized how challenging it is to let things go.. I'm the type of person that would do all I can to get something I cannot have.. But it made me question myself.. Do I want it because I cannot have it? Because having some things in life that is easily achievable is a bore. I have wanted this "one thing" for so long, and I don't know if it is worth letting go.. Or worth fighting for.. I will never know until I have it right? Oh well.. What came into my head was.. maybe its not worth it.. It's the challenge of not getting it and letting go is what is hardest.. And that is the challenge I have to fight.. If I can get through it then maybe that would make me feel better.. I don't know, I'll have to try.. I guess that is my weakness.. Anyways my friend sent me this song by James Blunt "Fall At Your Feet" and I told him I didn't understand the lyrics..till he told me it was about masturbating.. bahaha.. search the lyrics for yourself. Funny.